Saturday, October 2, 2010

Saturday.....

Fremont was so amazingly white trash last night - biker mommas as far as the eye could see..... guys walking around in tour shirts for bands that haven't toured in 10 years, and i am guessing the shirts fit a little better when they bought them..... but eh - such is life..... it was a weird combination of humanity - the average fremont fair - tourists, hookers, random performers - add to that 1000's of bikers - made an amazing smoothie of humanity lol....

Sorry about BYU last night - figured that with 6 wives they would have played a little better - but eh.... utah state rocked from buzzer to buzzer and i think by years end they might find a bowl game :)

The diet is still going, ate a little extra this morning so hopefully i don't lurch like i did yesterday, ran out of energy - so i am thinking today will go far better - i guess this is all a adjustment - body is used to running on sugar and caffiene and i am feeding it fruits and veggies lol.....


oh well - time to start looking for clothes to go to work in - talk to you guys later :)

Laz~

Friday, October 1, 2010

Another new adventure.....

I started my diet..... its a shock to the system - totally re-doing my diet from the ground up.... its something new - changing years of eating habits - its an adventure of sorts..... and the reward at the end - a new, skinnier, healthier me.....

I also decided to do something that when i started this blog that i didn't think i would do.... I am going to share it with the facebookians...... let them giggle at my random exploits, give me a kick in the ass when i need it, and cheer me on when i don't...

Its been a wild week...... started the diet and over the course of 3 days i won 600 bucks..... hooray for dumb luck! Still at the golden nugget, getting settled into football season - the crowds are not as punishing, the rushes are not as bad as they were, both because people have settled into football season as well, and i have been attuned to the rushes - so they don't seem to bad anymore.....

But anyway, its friday, its 10am and I got about 2 hours to get my shit together, do some dishes, wash my ass, sweep the house, eat an apple and be on my way - for it is bikefest weekend and fremont is going to be absolute chaos.

And here goes my football picks for the weekend - we can see how i do lol

7pt teaser - 6 teams
Alabama -2
Florida St. -1/2
Ohio St. -11
Air Force -3
USC -4
Iowa Pick

7pt teaser - 6 teams
BYU +1
Michigan -3 1/2
Northwestern +2
Maryland -1
Ohio St. -11
Air Force -3

Lets see how we do :)

Laz~

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

A New Day, A New Gig, and Internet Pervin' - OH MY

Well hello my blogians..... I know when I last left you things were bleak..... things were..... it was scary out there.... I hit a week where I was so lost on what was next that i said about 50 words total....... and for those that know me - that's rare at the very least...... but things are starting to look up..... days they are a changin'........ I got a new monitor so I can see all of you much better now - I was on a 15in monitor for almost a month - it was the saddest thing even.... but I went yesterday and picked up a new ASUS 24.5 inch monitor - I highly reccomend it - its beatuiful...... I also got a new droid phone - i am totally confused by it and i am sure I will end up cussing it a few times before I figure out exactly what im doing lol......

The new gig - I am working as a Sports Book Writer at the Golden Nugget..... its a neat gig - you meet a lot of random people.... both wealthy and dirt poor - far more varied than my previous gig - but it keeps you on your toes - lots of randomness - people out drinking and partying, and you are close enough to the casino to feel the excitement of what's going on outside.....

Internet Pervin' - I have been drawn into the world of myfreecams.com..... yes yes i know i know - your thinking random cam girl site..... and for the most part your right - but I have found a few gems in the midst of the all too dreg masses...... the girl of my internet dreams is Miss Aedan Rayne..... she has this way of projecting her personality into what she is doing, she enjoys it - and it shows..... She is interactive - not just a woman sitting in front of her webcam randomly flashing nipple to make some cash - if you have a question for her she will answer it - if you tell her a joke - she laughs - if she wears cake as a hat - she swiffers..... yes she swiffers..... and the swiffer is currently for sale for 24.99 plus shipping and handling...... I did something I didn't think was possible in this day and age - i have made friends with a internet cam girl...... she welcomes me when I get online and blows me kisses, she laughs at my jokes and I giggle at her zany exploits in her life as a internet wet dream...... I have found myself logging in just looking to see if she's online - like sneeking into a shop just to see if that cute girl that works behind the counter is there while you build up the nerve to ask her name...... I know that in reality I will probably never meet her in person - unless I am lucky enough to get a chance to get her autograph after she becomes a star...... I look forward to the time I get to spend watching her, laughing with her, and getting to know this addictive personality on a webcam in a galaxy far far away.......


I look forward to more updates blogites..... and more will be coming soon - I promise.....

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Not much to say as of late....

I have been working on finding a new job...... another 100 resumes out, probably 150 applications at this time - and I am hoping and praying the phone rings soon.... anyone know anybody who's hiring? I can do just about anything.

Saturday, June 19, 2010

Days to Stew.... I think I am ready to eat.....

I have spent the last few days tearing my month within the Harrah's organization down and rebuilding it piece by piece trying to figure out what I did wrong to deserve being terminated with no reasoning just "Sorry you are the weakest link, goodbye." I honestly had more hope for Harrah's as a company after listening to a few of my friends sing the praises of the company.... I honestly took the job seriously even though it was only a peon position.... it was a foot in the door - a place to start.... and honestly that's all I wanted and needed..... but after the way my "separation" was handled, I honestly was left with a lot more questions than answers. Did I do something wrong, Did I speak out of line, Was I rude to a guest, Did I do something wrong on the actual back end of money handling or some compliance issue? It could have been 100 things or nothing..... but I continue to analyze it getting more and more angry with every passing examination.

Harrah's is a massive multi-billion dollar organization so I realize to them I was just a tiny blip on a computer screen somewhere - but they have forgotten the human element, they forget for every slot machine that makes them money there is 2 humans at a minimum that keep those reels spinning, for every bet made on a sporting event - there is a human writing that ticket, for every spin of the roulette wheel, hand of 21, or toss of the dice.... there is more and more humans that are involved in the wheel..... and you might wonder where I am going with this, in our "orientation" which was nothing more than a 3 day pep rally of where Harrah's is awesome - we had the line "Get Me, Guide Me, Root for Me" drilled into our heads - the internal company motto for departments. Honestly at the end of the day this is nothing more than a feel good farce, your are nothing at Harrah's - you are nothing more than a number on a computer who does some task that helps the behemoth along.... a little grease on a wheel that keeps that income flooding in. Basically, when it comes down to it at the end of the day, all I want to know is a one word question.... "Why?" I was given no reasoning as to why I was being let go, I was given no write ups, or verbal warnings over my short month with the company, my cash drawer was accurate within 2 bucks over the month.... so I am not sure what I did that was so flawed that signed my walking papers....

I called my recruiter that started me down this path of wasted time to begin with.... And I asked her the same question "Why?" Does this mean that I can never work for Harrah's again? Does this mean I wasn't a "fit" in the department? She had no answers either..... Not that I expected her to.... she is just another part in the machine.....

But sitting off to the side of the road watching the machine roll off into the sunset I miss it, I miss the hustle and bustle of post time, I miss explaining bets to people so they could better understand what we did, I miss having a place to go, something to do... I miss the yet again delayed plans that I had lined up to get accomplished this year.... But would I ever want another spot in the Harrah's machine..... Honestly if I am never given the answer to my simple question of "Why?", I don't think I would ever step back on the Harrah's express..... They pick people up and give them hope and them drop them on their face with not a clue as to what they have done to have gotten there..... But I guess that's another day in modern society, where personality means less and less, pride means less and less, a naturally competitive instinct means less and less - and all people want you to do is sit down, shut up, and take your spot with the masses, grinding away in the heat and dirt while someone reaps the rewards of your labor..... but I guess that's just life.....

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Circling the Drain.....

I can feel a huge depression setting in...... I can feel my energy being sapped..... I am just sitting here...... filling out applications, hoping and praying a phone call comes as soon as possible.... cause i can't take this again..... it took everything in my power the last time to stop myself from just banging my head into the wall...... and this time i dont have that strength.....

The more things change - the more they continue to suck....

I walked into work at 8:35 this morning and was taken into my department directors office and was told I was being let go...... So after a month of thinking that things were turning around finally...... that bills were gonna get paid off, credit rebuilt.... for the first time in a year I was looking to the sky seeing a silver lining for a change..... should have known it was all a farce and soon enough I would be back where I was..... So here I sit..... 31 years old, and I honestly have no idea what I am going to do........

There are days that it just isn't worth breathing..... and I have those days more often than not it seems........ I don't know why I bother caring....